life in miri

what i've done in this 7 days..

1. cried damn freaking cham in karen's farewell

2. meet my son

3. pass my driving test, im a driver now

4. yamcha with jasmine

5. went to mr. ho's fine food with my family

6. sleep in my air conditional room

7. drink chicken soup

8. body-check up

sad + hapi

i dunno how to describe my feelings now. shud i be hapi or sad? hapi that im going back to miri tomorrow. sad that my dear ahna is leaving da day after tomorrow. i dunno when am i going to meet her again once she leaves. she said she might not be coming back during chinese new year too. don't feel good now. she is like.. my boyfriend la.. suddenly realized that i can't live without her. recall back all da memories we had, we've been through together, i really so damn freaking miss that tym lor. still remember that we always go pangsai together when we were in secondary school, skipped classes to friend's house to play "ma ma ji", shopping together, choose cosmetics together, eat ice cream at dessert together, clubbing together, drunk together, this and that and arg i cannot sleep already if i write down everything here. sigh.. ofcourse, we argued before too, argued because of those such small things, maybe we're still not mature enuf? haha. i remembered that we ever argued until very serious one tym, we never talk to each other for few days and acted like we dunno each other at school. finally cannot tahan already, we sms-ed each other and ajak to go toilet together. haha. paiseh to tok den we sms each other. like couple argue huh? =.=

caming with her now.. going to see her tomorrow nite but only for 3 hours. she has to go to brunei first at early morning on saturday. haihx.. i suppose to be happy that im going back but i dunno why im just so down now.

boring~

boring nite~ haha. was chatting with dear ahna just now. ges wat? we viewed webcam! actually this is not da first tym but we always feel so excited while we're caming. know why? so feel like we're couple aner miss each other too much until have to view webcam. haha. and.. we never ever forgot to do da thing we usually do- take photo! aduh.. too boring la abuthen zho ha mi? hei.. i really don't feel like im a having-exam-student. im going to sit for my first paper tomorrow but im still chatting with her now. sigh~ relax~ haha.

well.. have to sleep now.

nitez!

get used to it

today..

i didn't call u, not even once..

whole day never get any call from you too..

i dunno what are you doing.. i wanted to know but i can't..

can't even ask anything about you..

not even dare to take up my fon and press the "call" button..

u really don't care anymore?

u really can let it be just like that?

u really don't want to know anything about mi anymore?

am i not important to u anymore?

how cute

hahaha! he is soo cute! he called mi just now after he finished competition, he keep on telling mi "laopo i love you, laopo i really love you, love you o~" den i was like.. uhhh~ okiee laogong i love you too.. den he was like.. hehe laopo ar can i go to play game leta? zzz! so this is da main point of being so sweet huh? he knows that it is very late already and he scared that i don't let him go out and get angry. he still say so damn alot what im going back la, when i go back he will accompany mi all of da tym and now he just want to spend some tyms with his friends first because he scared that they say him so realistic, girlfriend comes back den pek diao them. so we have a deal, i let him go to play game but he has to arrive home before 2am. he is soooo happie to hear that! my god. den its tym to show my isi tersirat of being so good too, i tell him i hope that i can back home late abit on karen's farewell party. wahahahaha. den he was like.. oohhh yuan lai shi zhe yang~ see first la~ ish.. he cannot let mi suang xia one wor, i really hope i can spend more tyms with her too ma since she is going to adelaide so soon. i don't care.. i want i want!

actually im studying now and i promised i will not update until i finish exam. but i just can't control myself la~

suddenly miss him so much.. 5 more days to go..

what am i going to do now? head to da kitchen and make myself a cup of Milo. >.<

my god

arh! FINALLY i finished it! this blogskin took mi around 1 hour plus to edit, change this and that, posting song and also da chartterbox. put so much afford huh? yeah.. this is my first tym though, normally if i can't do it i will just give up and use da original layout. at first i thought it is like multiply copy and paste down da codes den it is done but who knows, it is so mafan one. luckily i still got abit talented on editing this kind of thing =P Now, my blog is normal and can be shown out already.

okie im so tired now, its 3.29 am. do listen to my blog's song-Bleeding Love. my lappie is keep on repeating this song now. i shud jump into my bed now. Wish mi good luck in my mid-year exam on this coming tuesday and i will be back to miri on Friday! *wink*

ahh i don't care what they said..

i'm in love with you..

真心的人最幸福..

我們常听到有朋友抱怨爱情前后不一的样子...
追求時是多殷勤，而追到手后却失去了当初的热情...
女人开始怀疑男人有新欢..
男人认为女人无理取闹..
分分合合中..
爱情的品质直直滑落..

我們也常听到...
许多人大喊：我只要细水长流的爱情，不要轰轰烈烈的愛情！
但是，似乎看到的每一对情侣在一开始就爱的死去活來，天天膩在一起...
不然就是电话讲不停，一副我可以为对方牺牲一切的模樣...
愛情总在一开始猛烈燃烧，卻常常烧成灰燼

我常会思考一個問題：我爱的是這個人，还是爱上爱情的感觉？
通常有一半的人是恋上爱情的感觉...
所以当他們在沒有情人时总是感到空虛寂寞，直囔着想找個人來爱...
假如再更讲究一點，还会加個“ 要对的人來爱 ”的条件，以表自己的“寂缺勿滥”!
但说穿了，只不過是想找人填補心中的空缺，找个爱自己的人...
因为沒有被爱就活不下去!

而另一半则是真的愛這個人，他們愿意付出，就算对方会粗心大意的乎略自己...
也不会一直比较谁爱谁多....
假如哪天对方离开了，也不会因得不到而來个玉石俱焚...

我会告诉爱我的：请用“心”來爱我..
別用你的感觉來爱我...
感受被一個人疼，不要每天专车接送...
也不是要甜言蜜语...
更不是夜夜激情...
要在乎的，是对方看自己的眼神!

跟你在一起时，他的视野都是你...
有热情，有欣赏...
当不在身边时，他的心中是惦記的，有思念、有相信!
两人在一起不是要相互牵绊....

我們说牵挂牵挂，是牵引着自由去将爱情掛在內心深处...
假如对方表示他因为想你而一整天茶不思饭不想...
那代表在爱情里，他还不夠独立!

这样的情人很多，而他們也终会真正属于某一個人、某一段感情...
找到愿意接受另一個人将梦想建筑在自己身上的，這是其中一种爱情形态!
而在爱情中，的却是很难将两人分的清楚...
因为毕竟爱情是两人一同创造出來的，是兩個灵魂交錯的光合作用...
只是，不要忘了，属于自己的那一顆心依然在胸口掛著...
而思维更是专属的!

虽然一路上會有形形色色的人陪自己走過...
但唯有自己是陪自己全程走完...
不忠於自己，那要对谁负责？

假如两人在爱情中都失去自己，为了对方改变自己...
看不到独特性，久了爱情會像间只卖 capuccino 的咖啡店...
沒有其他口味的惊喜...

承諾，是爱情的某种制式语言，可能說天荒地老...
可能言海枯石烂...
但往往再多的保证都留不住已变的心...
顿时承诺成了刺耳的讽语...
不管自己是承諾的给予者或接受者...
最後的解释只剩力不从心!

我从没给過关于未來的承諾...
因為我连下一秒的云彩都无法预知了?
怎能告诉另一個人我們的将來有多美？
就连要给我承诺我也要不起...
只怕是期待越高，失落越大.......

山顶的风景很美...
但是不管是跌下來或是走下山，都比上山痛苦!

相爱不难...
但是爱已两难时，卻苦不堪言
先给自己承諾吧！

承诺一下自己会爱多久???
承诺一下爱有多真???
承诺一下怎么让爱幸福???

假如，连对自己的承诺都给不了...
怎有权利去对別人的未來负责？
怎有能力去给別人快乐？

一颗装滿爱的心...
是热诚的、是傻气的...
假如遇到另一颗对的心，那便是全天下最幸福的事了!

我們往往无法与最爱的人相爱到老...
却能选择与最懂自己的人相守!
这何尝不是种最美好的過程?
我們能求的不多，無非是种稳定与真心...
用心是一切付出的基础!

激情后的温暖是真的...
绝望后的領悟是痛的...
我們都该让真心起飞
別再问爱人与被爱哪个幸福 ?

我只能说，真心的人最幸福..

random post

just arrived home.. tired

don't feel like doing my chemistry past year questions now.. having 2 hours break now and i have to go back to college leta at 2pm. don't feel like sleeping too because i know i won't wake up to go class if i sleep now.

karen and sharon are in kl now. i went to sunway pyramid to find them that day after my class. didn't really go for shopping because we were talking non-stop while walking around in the shopping complex. they ajak mi to go for clubbing that nite but i can't join because i got class the second day and he won't allow too. sigh.. wasted. but nevermind la.. we have a date on 23rd remember? haha. karen will be going to adelaide on 24th so we have a farewell party for her on 23rd nite. means i have to chiong back home and change after i arrived miri. "bu zhui bu gui"!! haha

arh im so fat!

i've been using G-Tec since secondary school until now but i never finished using one whole pen by myself before. because da pen always dead or lost or wat by itself. finally, i finished da ink by myself this tym. this is da first tym! haha. now u can know how much things i have to write in college. =.= geng ler!

he went to interview that day and sent mi this pic before he that. he asked mi whether i will employ him or not if im da manager.

den i tell him i've employed him as my boyfriend already.

erm.. i think i better have a nap now if not im going to sleep in da class leta. not enuf sleep this few days but nevermind, suffer for this few days den im going to have 2 weeks break. can't wait to go back to miri.

i think im not going to update until i finish mid year exam.

i love him

I love him..

i wanna be the girl he is scared to lose
the one he can't walk away from
knowing that she is mad at him
the one he can't fall asleep without
her voice being the last one he hears

the one he can't live without

i remember

Do u know that I'm OK
are there things you wanna say
thinking of u night and day
hopping you'll come back and stay
I remember when u told me
I'll be all right
Don't worry

I try and try to understand
is all this just a sad goodbye
thinking of u night and day
no matter if you'll come and stay
I remember when u told me
I'll be all right
just hold me

I don't wanna close my eyes tonight
missing u make me cry
your love will give me strengths to carry on
you'll always be my heart and mind
so I don't wanna close my eyes tonight
I know it's just a miss match in time...why..oh why...
miss match in time

I try and try to understand
is all this just a sad goodbye
thinking of u night and day
no matter if you'll come and stay
I remember when u told me
I'll be all right
just hold me

So I don't wanna close my eyes tonight
missing u make me cry
your love will give me strengths to carry on
you'll always be my heart and mind
so I don't wanna close my eyes tonight
I know it's just a miss match in time...why..oh why...
don't wanna close my eyes tonight.

08/05/2008

okie.. im too boring now i think. viewed friend's blogspot just now and i think of creating one for myself. actually i know that im not going to blog here since i have multiply already but im just creating this acc to view ppl's blogspot. zzz. quite good also la.. many ppl know my multiply but i think nobody will know i have a blogspot too. sometimes might be blogging something that i wanted to say but couldn't let ppl to see it here? haha.. wuliao~ byebye~

my god

arhh! finally i finished it! this blogskin took mi around 1 hour to edit, change this and that, posting songs and also chartter box. put so much affort huh? yeah..it is my first tym though. normally if i can't do it, i'll give up for sure and use original layout suan liao. =.= so mafan one, i tot it is like multiply can straight away copy and paste. so happy to see my blog is "normal" now, not like last few days senget here and there.

okiee im so tired now.. its 3.29am. listen to my blog's song, so nice and da song is keep on repeating now. hmm.. i shud get to my bed now. wish mi good luck in my exams on tuesday, and i will be back to miri on next Friday! *wink*

ah i don't care what they said.. i'm in love with you..